Little things really like when we got ready together for a night out you'd grin and kiss me or you'd come in after we had been apart for a couple of weeks and we'd have a cuddle on the bed before doing anything else, and i miss that. If you feel it, i'd really love to see it, you know? When we woke up the other morning and you kissed me even though we both had terrible morning breath and told me you where glad to wake up together, i was still smiling to myself on the train to college. Things you do mean the world and are always, always appriciated. Just as much as when we talk about things and then after the conversation i can see that you're really trying to do what you can for what we have talked about but in a differen't way.
I wasn't sure how to say it when you where here because i'd like to talk about it because i didn't manage fully and i don't think it's fair for you not to know, if that makes sense. Physically we seem bit lost the past few months, of course your sex drive is differen't to mine and distance and ups and downs and such, but we know this and there isn't anything wrong with that, but outside of that i feel as though we aren't as affectionet as we used to be.Sometimes i'm dying to kiss you but i don't incase you push me away or assume you won't want to, i remember saying i just need physical love (..jesus) and that doesn't mean sex or always have to lead to it, feeling your touch on me or things like when you come up behind me when i'm doing my make up and wrap your arms around me. Please don't let these things go, of course i appriciate there are times when you need a little room and don't want to be touched and you know i'll respect that. But it because you want to though not because i've said this, i'm more or less just letting you know thoughts.
You mean a lot to me and i like to express that ( as you know haha), equally your love means the same to me. You said that you felt forced to say things sometimes and i think your right in that i do ask in the wrong way, for which i'm sorry. Occationally i get a little unsettled because you don't really respond in any way to letters/texts even if it's just an aknowlagement that you've read it is enough. If you show me with things like a stupid face snapchat ect then even better, picture of something reminds you of me or us. Particulaly things like this which i'd really like your take on, quick chat about it and it gets put away rather than coming back in bits, if that makes sense. Even if it's spread across a couple of days because scedules and a lot of typing if you're nackard or what ever is just a no no, it will still be relivent in a few days time though. Any time you put into it is really appriciated because i know your not a fan of it at the best of times.
Questions that aren't day related or such are still important. We have only been together for a year, there must be things you want to ask me what ever it may be, i could happily sit and ask you loads of questions but i don't because i'd feel a bit of a fool if you didn't reply. I want you to want to put the effort in too, you know? it shouldn't be a chore or feel as though it's something your forcing yourself to do. I'd rather you text me and told me about the cute puppy you saw today, or little things like aimed snap chats - we have gotten into a routine of how are yous and how was your day and i'd like to both break it and get a little closer. The distance doesn't effect how close we can be, it is what we make it in a way. We don't need to talk all the time to feel as close and neither of us can because we are both busy, it's the smaller details. I really don't want to get lax with each other, what we have it great and i want to grow it for sure.
I'm really hoping that you don't feel totally bombarded if i do it this way, you know the last thing i want to do is hurt you or make you feel as though you're doing everything wrong, because it's really is not the case - it just i tell you things in chunks when they come to mind because we can't usually talk about them in person, Like when we do the annoying chat haha like that and this way i can tell you some things that you can read at your own time.
I love you.
I'm really hoping that you don't feel totally bombarded if i do it this way, you know the last thing i want to do is hurt you or make you feel as though you're doing everything wrong, because it's really is not the case - it just i tell you things in chunks when they come to mind because we can't usually talk about them in person, Like when we do the annoying chat haha like that and this way i can tell you some things that you can read at your own time.
I love you.
