Im working on it and that's the best I can do with the situation. There are some things that I will put two and two together and get six, most likely stuff like I asked you last night. I do think you should know that I don't see it as anything other than my shit and my fault because most every time you'll have done not a thing wrong. I figured out a solution which is basically just working on my confidence again so I'm not quite so terrified of losing you for no apprent reason. It means as well that you won't have to reassure me haha. It's never a question really because you're as sold as this as I am and you wouldn't. You just wouldn't and I deffinetly know this. I hope you can forgive the times I get myself into a mess, I've never had someone as good to me and for me as you are. I care about you more than anything though so I will do my best with it. 

I wanted you to find this I didn't want to bring it directly to you because you know, shit is more adventurous this way. Wilderness explorer. 

It might not be a big deal but hey it's important to tell you if I'm looking at you in a kinda way which makes me mentally go 'I love you' and to me it is a big deal. I'm so proud of you for sticking to your guns on the job front even though you're under pressure from your dad and daily not okey with the fact you have broken up days. Instead of being Myserable and you're finding something you love, I respect you for it and it's mint you strive to make you're self happy. It's a quality I love in you. You're amazing. 

In first days of your life there's a line that goes " maybe this time it's different, I mean I really think she likes me" which is why I play it to a sleeping badger.