I'm lost on how to comminicate to you so many things.
Things like, when i see you i get a little twitchy feeling on top of my nerves so when i finally hug you at the train station or by my door, i feel myself tear up. But i never actually cry, maybe this time i will its been a long time. When you call me or even offer to call/facetime then it makes me so happy that you want to and that i'll hear your voice. I'd never want to assume you want/need my presence that just how i am, i don't like to assume anything, so every time i see that you do it means more than you'll know. On the time where you open up to me a little more, show me something new about you, things from the past that has effected you or anything really, it's like it holds you a little closer to me and i get to see more of you. Thats one of the most important things, seeing each other completely i think. I'd never want to have any secrets from you or untold stories. When i hurt you or even make you slightly sad seeing you that way is punishment enough, kills me seeing you cry or close yourself off. Which isn't a reason not to do it, i'll welcome it every time if it's important to you, it's important to me.There was this time when we where at the art gallerie in Edinburgh, i was there for a day trip, and you where walking up the stairs infront of me. I could help but look at you, and this is something you'll never believe i know, but you are so damn beautiful. Especially when you're happy, when you're giggling away having one of your laughing fits, you're the most beautiful to me. When i lost you that day, my hearts never dropped so fast and so painfully, it showed me how fucking intensely i loved you thats for sure. Simply i don't know how i'd be without you and thats scary, but i wouldn't have it any other way. I wouldn't have you any other way. The way you look at me with a little smile and it's the "i love you" look, if i ever wasn't the girl to have that i'd be devistated. If i'm being a bitch, and it feels like i'm hating on you, the likely hood is that is coming from fear some where. I'd never intentionally be awful to you. When we sleep together, it's not about the raw thing, its about being that close to you, making sure you know how much you're wanted and knowing you want me the same. Even if i shrug them off, the things you tell me and the compliments mean the damn world. You make me feel amazing. I'm not too sure sometimes if i'm loving you right, if i'm too much or too little. Any time you show me these things, let me in on what your thinking, you'd be confused why it means so much but it does. Be sure that you love me right, i trust you to do right by me.
I love you kate.
Things like, when i see you i get a little twitchy feeling on top of my nerves so when i finally hug you at the train station or by my door, i feel myself tear up. But i never actually cry, maybe this time i will its been a long time. When you call me or even offer to call/facetime then it makes me so happy that you want to and that i'll hear your voice. I'd never want to assume you want/need my presence that just how i am, i don't like to assume anything, so every time i see that you do it means more than you'll know. On the time where you open up to me a little more, show me something new about you, things from the past that has effected you or anything really, it's like it holds you a little closer to me and i get to see more of you. Thats one of the most important things, seeing each other completely i think. I'd never want to have any secrets from you or untold stories. When i hurt you or even make you slightly sad seeing you that way is punishment enough, kills me seeing you cry or close yourself off. Which isn't a reason not to do it, i'll welcome it every time if it's important to you, it's important to me.There was this time when we where at the art gallerie in Edinburgh, i was there for a day trip, and you where walking up the stairs infront of me. I could help but look at you, and this is something you'll never believe i know, but you are so damn beautiful. Especially when you're happy, when you're giggling away having one of your laughing fits, you're the most beautiful to me. When i lost you that day, my hearts never dropped so fast and so painfully, it showed me how fucking intensely i loved you thats for sure. Simply i don't know how i'd be without you and thats scary, but i wouldn't have it any other way. I wouldn't have you any other way. The way you look at me with a little smile and it's the "i love you" look, if i ever wasn't the girl to have that i'd be devistated. If i'm being a bitch, and it feels like i'm hating on you, the likely hood is that is coming from fear some where. I'd never intentionally be awful to you. When we sleep together, it's not about the raw thing, its about being that close to you, making sure you know how much you're wanted and knowing you want me the same. Even if i shrug them off, the things you tell me and the compliments mean the damn world. You make me feel amazing. I'm not too sure sometimes if i'm loving you right, if i'm too much or too little. Any time you show me these things, let me in on what your thinking, you'd be confused why it means so much but it does. Be sure that you love me right, i trust you to do right by me.
I love you kate.
