I struggle with wanting you all the time, so please don’t mistake my silence for indifference. It’s just I have to hold myself back because I feel too much. Too often. If i let it all out then i would end up telling you ever single thought i'd had about you that day. All at once. When you're away i get so home sick from you and i let it get so ontop of me which is silly, because its an unchangeable situation, i can't help lying in bed at night awake thinking about how much i wish you where there with me. Sometimes the only thing that stops me getting on a train to Edinburgh is i'd get so horrendously lost trying to find your house.